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Promises

2012-02-12T13:37:00.000+08:00

You told me you'll give me one of those during my 21st birthday.

I guess we're destined to be together for the longest time, eh?

Just so you know, I'm happily locked, even though it's not an option.

Forgive is such a strong word.

Tough! Tough lah!!!

2012-02-09T02:13:00.000+08:00

The common perception of how beautiful snow is :

Reality begs to differ :

How to run to uni when you're late!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Highway toll : We don't accept credit cards.

I went through the list of courses that were offered for the next semester and BOOM!

Right I have 5 law classes so..... in addition to that, daily Japanese classes makes it 10, and maybe Macroeconomics, Academic English, First Year Seminar B, Management, Ethics, Cultural nonsense, so that makes it... wow. Might be taking more IDK!!!!

That's like an average of 3 classes per day....................................... at least 6 hours of pain in the ass. And by that I mean the sedentary lifestyle.

This is going to be an uphill struggle. I only took 15 classes for this semester and I'm on the verge of dying, especially during the first month where i found most of the lectures incomprehensible. It still is - especially for political systems, but I hope I did well for my finals though.

The professors here, so far the ones that I've encountered, the Japanese class professors are way too kind. 甘くない、厳しいですが、めっちゃ優しい！！！！Other profs are way too smart, me is in no position to comment loh. I will write nice stuffs about them once my results are out.

Law professors here : http://gsl-nagoya-u.net/faculty/

Life here's all good, but the rashes on my thighs just won't go away! I hope it disappears once I'm back in Malaysia. Shouldn't have worn stockings + jeans that's a major killer.

Exams ended last week and right now I'm chillin' away. Made an appointment with the Japanese class professors to practice on my Japanese. So nice right they all!!! Will buy them macha latte coffee.

The best food in Japan is Kebab.

What what what what what what?

2012-02-01T23:14:00.000+08:00

Winter isn't that bad afterall

2012-01-28T16:12:00.001+08:00

Sometimes in life, you just try so hard to impress others who are basically insignificant in your life. Would you sacrifice something, that bears so much sentiments for a particular individual whom you care about, in order to impress the other 99 that means nothing to you?

Anyway, I love the above picture. My mom will be so happy to know that I'm well taken care of in this foreign land, which now seem like a new home to me. Someone somewhere must have arranged all of these for me, and I believe she's the one who has paved this road for me. I have never felt more loved in my life. Perhaps I do, but never as strong as before.

In simpler words, when was the last time you had a hot breakfast, made by your mother, together with your family? When did your family last waited for you around the dining table, patiently waiting for you to arrive before they start? When was the very last time, you truly enjoy the company of your family around the dining table?

Is it that hard to be together as a family again?

2012-01-27T00:31:00.000+08:00

and to anyone reading this, please, find someone worthy of your love. unless you're fooling around. well what other reasons can there be? ANYWAY just a post to push the heavy post down.

2012-01-27T00:22:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, I just don't get it. I know it's nice to be loved, I told you not to throw your love around. And when I mention one day I might go around the circle of people of similar national identity to yours and say I love you in your language, you used my words on me.

Problem is lady, I protect myself from disgusting messages. I choose whom I love, and I choose whom I'm being loved by. If you were to use your words on me again upon the utmost inappropriate situations, the most I could do is smile. Bear in mind that the same shit that you boggled me with for eternity, sure I don't have to give a shit. I gave a shit, and you ignored, and you begged for more shit. And for now, I do not wish to interfere in any cases of that particular issue. Please understand that in no way I can possibly bear a look of disgust whenever you bring that up, and me giving the look of "i don't care" made you go "right you don't have to give a shit". Of course I don't have to lady - as long as you're safe, by all means do what you like. I ain't here to baby-sit or offer any form of relationship advice.

Please understand that it is none of my responsibility if your actions bring upon the exact consequences that you might / might not foresee. If you love to use my words on me - sure. A great reminder of how I should watch my mouth, a good training before i venture into the unknown society.

If it makes you happy, it can't be as bad as what I think it is.

Period.

Wish I'd be the one saying "AH-HA!" in your face

2012-01-27T00:03:00.001+08:00

Back on track!

A summary of my pending shitz:

1) a 6 page political systems essay due tomorrow
2) globalization exam on monday
3) globalization 5 page essay due on monday
4) academic paper due on tuesday
5) japanese exam on wednesday
6) management exam on wednesday
7) macroeconomics exam on wednesday
8) japanese exam on thursday
9) business history exam on thursday
10) literature research paper due on friday
11) japanese exam on friday
12) political systems exam on fridayhttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kNGNLo8K6Fk
13) literature exam on friday

what should i do?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kNGNLo8K6Fk

2011-10-27T23:26:00.002+08:00

Greed:	Very Low
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	Low
Sloth:	Medium
Envy:	Very Low
Lust:	Low
Pride:	Very Low

Take the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz

Link from Tien Mie. Haha.

2011-10-24T23:42:00.002+08:00

You can't think of dying when the bottle's your best friend

Summary!

2011-10-22T10:03:00.002+08:00

Life at Nagoya's..... Fine so far. I like my room! Though I hope I have a maid to do all the cleaning up :D

It's pretty stressful here. The first week of lecture was so shitty i couldn't understand shit. I'm starting to pick up though (i think) and now the lectures make more sense, except for political systems. Screw that!!! The prof's all good but yeah I'm still finding a way to cope with it.

Imma just uh, post random pics according to the timeline and pour in some descriptions.

Departure from KL, took a transit at Bangkok, got minsunderstood as a Jap at Bangkok, met a couple of helpful people at both Bangkok and Japan just because they pitied a 15 year-old travelling alone.

It wasn't a really pleasant flight, I was dehydrated most of the time and was too shy to ask for water.

First outing with Ann from Vietnam, Dilafruz from Uzbekistan

Well, included this in case you guys start complaining bout the lack of pictures of my pretty face.

Them people

First few days at uni was pretty boring, but we walked around exploring the campus. For the first two weeks I will just walk aimlessly around the campus or memorize the location / route /building of classes being held so I won't have to ask for directions under any circumstances (aiyo too shy to ask ppl la!!), especially during the 15 minutes gap in between different classes at different locations. Well it's pretty awkward to walk alone so most of the time I will pretend to look at the deemed useless map (yeap useless for someone with basically zero sense of direction). And if you are REALLY lost, all you need to do is pull off a super confused face and a Jap will approach you and ask if you're OK. :)

Second outing with Mark from Mexico, and Chui Ping from Malaysia. Ward Office trip i guess?

Me first time eating out in Nagoya (excluding the campus cafeteria!!!)

Entrance ceremony! From top to bottom.. No. From left to right... Doesn't work. From.... size of boobs 32 to.... xD ALRIGHT UHM. There's Dochka from Mongolia, Ann from Viet, Dilafruz from Uzbek, Chui Ping from Malaysia and Fatin from Singapore. GO FIGURE. Shouldn't be that hard.

Stupid heels. O well CHALLENGE ACCEPTED.

Hahahaha i just gotta include this pic!

And this pic too!

And this pic yes!!!

Sakai

Scholarship ceremoneh

Thanks Nagoya University! Had 50k yen and now I'm left with 10k xD

Certificate heheeheheehehehehh

The campus

3rd outing with Chui Ping! Went to get our cells and had a decent breakfast at Mr. Donut when they were having this 100 yen for everything offer.

^^v Super friendly staff at au

Met a suprised friend at KFC. Tried their chicken, pretty good.

Went to a shrine while waiting for our cells

It's so peaceful in there and the smell of incense is awesome. BUT THERE WERE SWARMS OF MOSQUITOES DANCING IN CIRCLES HOW SCARY IS THAT. And one thing i've noticed - Mosquitoes in Japan are kinda slow and stupid (perhaps they're one of those more civilized vampires?!!). Which is a good thing! Not like those back in Malaysia, violent and aggressive. (And Jap ones are easier to be killed too :P)

Japs walking real fast at everywhere and anywhere they go

Kurapika! I like calling it kurapika!!!

Nagoya station. Busy as always

5th outing! With the sakai again again! It was actually a trip organized by the law faculty and sponsored by the boss of some chestnut company. The chestnuts here are pretty good and the owner of the shop was so nice he brought us around Imai! And it was during Nagoya fest (which lasted for 2 days) there were lotsa gorgeous performances. An eye-opening experience! And have I mentioned how gorgeous the macha ice-cream here is? There's a reason why they refer it as soft-cream instead of ice-cream!!!!

Temples! I love visiting temples!

Male servants with excessive eyeliner and devilishly smirking female servants. What else could go wrong?

I wanna see Paul Stanley do that in real life! Just like this video!

ON THE NEWS!

6th outing with them people! Participated in one of those super cool events :) They're supposed to form this big picture? mural? I have no idea whats it called and I dont have the excess brain juice so I'm gonna drop it here. But yeah we were writing messages for the uh, victims at uh, you know the uh the news? The one that happened to Japan? Yes that's the one! *hides in embarrassment*

Nagoya castle! It was fun climbing up those stairs.

WHOOOO'S THE PHOTOGRAPHER

Hahahahahaha it's hard to find someone who has peaked the level of sakai-ness!

Yeap it was fun. Visited a few places, argh too lazy to get into detail.

I just gotta include this pic too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

More pics? Visit the facebook page. But yeah life's all good here I'm like the stupidest in class. You were saying? Oh! Working on it!

2011-10-02T21:24:00.000+08:00

Is this the real life, is it just fantasy?

i need to get inspired.

open your eyes, look up to the skies and see

WHERE ARE THE JAPAN STARS I HAVE YET TO SPOT ONE.

*gets fat ass off chair and rush to the balcony*

NO STARS WAN. MEH.

because im easy come, easy go, little high, little low

i love you freddie. i would totally wear a strap on (with extra condoms) and we can have some great time together. you're like, my exact replica. we dream of dreams that dreaming mortals will only dream of in their dreams within countless dreams among the realms of dreams.

im just a poor boy, i need no symphathy

2011-09-25T16:14:00.001+08:00

i'm leaving in an hour!

when will i be able to see you guys again :'( sigh i'll miss all of you, but i'll definitely miss mr white bitch to death. wish i could give him a great night or something (keep in mind that's he's already 70 human-years-old and i might not be able to see him again). sigh. the only friend who won't frown upon my decisions, sticks with me through all forms of shit, bullshit birdshit humanshit. when i was so stressed up to the point of breaking up i would just hug him real tightly, and he'll always be there looking so confused :P sigh i'll miss stroking his fur, i'll miss the way he grins, and the way he groans when im near his dinner.

i love you bitch, if you're a human we could've done so many things. so many. you know, like play video games, watch tv, then make some dinner at the kitchen table, together................

2011-09-05T01:37:00.000+08:00

OHhh, I'm such a fickle lover. Had a crush on both Axl Rose and Paul Stanley in a day. I'm done with Axl Rose, but the love for Paul Stanley's yet to die.

Yum yum yum. Am I really that fickle-minded btw? Sigh FINALLY. A FRIEND WHO DOESNT FIND ME WEIRD. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE BABY, AND I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

Well to you peeps who find me weird and uh, disgusting, w/e! i ain't gonna lick myself clean for real.

OMG MY DOG'S SO CUTE

Announcement :

2011-08-31T11:45:00.003+08:00

Announcement :

I shall never take alcohols. Ever again. So far I've never really got drunk / high / siao by drinking too much, and starting uh, last last month, I will not sip, It shall not pass my lip.Well unless required during specific ceremonies. Why? Noooo it's not that I got so wasted I got raped definitely nooo. But I think, hey its not cool getting drunk, and it's time to put that habit to a halt.

Something that blinds your senses, something that makes you lose your sanity = NOT COOL. So not cool! I ain't gonna kiss a guy who's mouth smells like garbage. Nevah. Maybe if he smokes Malboro red cigarettes. Man the smell of his breath will be.............................. Oh god but when i think of his sperm count, naaaaah. Sumimasen, chotto...................................................................

So yeah. Well yes a sip or two won't hurt, but I figured that if in the near future, when I'm all stressed out and stuff, this shit thought will eventually cross my head and I'll start drinking, (and get laid) and get my ass kicked. Gosh. Yes never.

Don't you people feel totally useless after consuming a considerable amount of liquor? Like, you'll just lie down and chillax at random places and mumble incomprehensible nonsense and millionz and billionz of messed up thoughts will just pop outta random parts of the brain and....Well I'm glad to announce that you are officially one step away from retardation! YAY!

So yeah, by any chance, if I caught any of you drunk, don't be too surprised if I'll point my index finger at you and laugh my fucking ass off. You pricks deserve it. Bloody people numbing their acumen and that's how you appreciate god's creation / ancestral evolution. Daaaamn.

Cheers. I mean, toodles! Yeah and down with drugs and cigarettes. Bad bad habits. DROP IT PLEASE. It's heartbreaking to see one wither at such speed.

Thank you. And remember, Drunkenness is nothing but voluntary madness ~ Seneca.

You can definitely do better.

New post! Wee!!

2011-08-20T11:05:00.001+08:00

Hi hi! Name saye qijun. Ok right now i tengah kerja kat the edge (newspaper tu) dan uh kita ada organize satu larian ke cambodia! Sape mau join ye? Register cpt k!

Okay right so that night I went food tasting for this event (known as the tom and jerry race) where you'll get to see CEOs run in their office attire WEEEEEEEEEEEEE! Check em photos out at www.klratrace.com

Ahhhh the food was. I prefer char kuay teow la.

Pics!

Appetizer : Goat Cheese. Taste like shit man the beetroot was ok larh. But yeah at the end of the dinner they figured this was a bit too bluek since the rest of the food on the menu are really rich and creamy so decided to ditch it for good

Hehe

I ate 3 of this man! SHO GOOOOOOOD

Green Pea Soup. The Parmesan cheese was gooodish

Black bean soup. My superiors chose this instead of the green pea

Full Moon!

Ikan. Gawd as expensive as it could be fish n chips taste so much better IMO.

Got sooo bored started playing with the pebbles surrounding the flower. You bet my superiors must be thinking "This intern ah... Y so sakai wan"

Yay!

Double yay!!

Triple yay!!!

Dessert!!! Kawaiiiiiiiii!! Two pineapple strips with dragonfruit seed (i mean like, why so wasteful just chuck everything and turn it into salad la right) anddd thats the mango sherbet with some uh, forgot what u call. Something made from sugar and egg white.

冰山劈开！

And then we had coffee/tea with chocolates!! OMG the chocolates were SO AWESSOMEEE

Look at the all the pleasure/contentment/happiness written on the face of my boss :D totally enjoyable man!!!

So yeah my superiors suggested that all of us should use the washroom before we leave. So i went in and opened the door and omfg it totally freaked me out when the lid of the toilet bowl open by itself OMFG! LIKE BACK TO THE FUTURE DE LO! It's not a very pleasant way of saying hi welcome to poop in my hole you see. But YEAH IT WAS SO AWESOME YOU GET TO CHOOSE THE WATER FLOW/PRESSURE! Like front rear, rear....:P Aim it at the part you want it to clean. I spend 10 good mins inside the washroom just playing on the buttons :P

OMG I CAN STAY HERE 4EVA

:) om nom nom

hot hot hot superior! hot hot hot!

Puffy fish. Of what mode did i shot this fish in? Food mode!!! It was literally posing for me man had so many shots of him.

Okay thats all work is all fun love it!

2011-08-14T15:58:00.002+08:00

i love hiding under tables! well who knows if a gehenna earthquake is forthcoming. love love love it when i'm embraced in my own shadows, there's nothing else but me me me. and i'll just stare at the outside world (the rest of my room), accompanied by silent hums of the aircon. hate it when i had to step into the light eventually, but for the momentous happiness and joy of hiding under a table... ah fuck it it's worth it.

my chemistry teacher used to say that i'm pretty much an individualistic person. hell yeah, it runs in my veins. it's pretty subjective, but to me the essence of all survivor skills lies in being individualistic. like, how the shit am i gonna help you outta that shitty quicksand if im trapped in mud myself? well figure out a way dammit!

Jack in ME2 used to comment on that. "Every time a person dies, my chances of survival is increased." something like that. no one can survive in this planet alone hell yes. that'll be boring. but having people around you, it's a 50/50. it all depends on the dice the gods wield. ah, so unpredictable, so uncertain, and if you're interested in the answer, go get a phd in Math. w/e.

would love to retreat to my dark corner once again. for now, i have things, yet to be resolved.

things.

2011-08-07T18:03:00.001+08:00

i love how mad i am most of the time. love every single bit of it. haul my wild chimera and i shall be nothing more than an empty beacon. i cast no shadows on no sickling's flame, but darken the domains of my repugnant thoughts. i fail at anticipating my own crazy cogitation, much less what others attempt to enunciate.

i love talking to myself. one of pure whiteness, the other of alabaster and ivory, an obdurate animus against embellishments, an unfettered fetish for fortuitous minutiae.

THE VOICES. a cracked symphony of profundity and consonance, the yelp of a saintlly little morsel teetering on death's razor edge, the limpid leper of all imaginations.

i will don black robe and sickle, as much as i would exhibit immense purity and clemency.

HAH-AHAHAA-HHAAHA-HAH-AHAHA-HAHAHAHAA

What's on your mind?

2011-07-08T12:36:00.002+08:00

OKAY I am dead determined to post a lengthy-wordy post today!

So what have I been up to these days? Can't remember much shit but right now I'm chillaxing at the veranda sippin some ol' white coffee sketching images of random women back in the 40's when it's drizzling out there. The strong wind left my hands shivering autonomically and my hair gently slapping across the right cheek, waiting for that very source of inspiration to bring me some solace within this empty vessel.

Ya right. Well I'm not lying I dream bout that scene every night. So beautiful! But I doubt if I'll enjoy it in reality tho. Seriously? Rainy days are so cold I'll have to gulp the entire cup of coffee down before i can enjoy its mild aftertaste. That, I tell you, is absolutely aphrodisiactic (don't mind the grammar, it's qi jun's way of typing. just like asdasdsdfs means spam in qi jun's dictionary. as in spam and bacon. that spam not the other spam ERGH.).

My hair's getting really long and I love playing with it! But sometimes it's a complete hassle - I'm one of those who move their heads around a lot, and I ALWAYS end up looking like some homeless scum daaamn. Gonna get a haircut before departing to Japan I guess!

So life's been good to me so far, no complains. Been sketching lately, love the way both monotonous black and white intertwine in their mundane world appearing in different shades to resemble something unique and abstract. Reminds me of THIS and THAT video. Which leads me to believe carbon is the hunk of all elements. Under pressure and heat? Diamonds. Without pressure and high heat? The ever dangerous carbon. Make 6 carbon atoms fuck each other? They'll fuck you back by giving you cancer har har. Carbon. Sexay. If I had to marry an atom I'll marry a carbon.

MMORPGs are a lethal social disease. Yeap I'm freaking saying this tho it was my world for the past 10 years. It leads one towards insanity and blurs one's vision. It's a legal drug that drives the weak to lose their senses in virtual realms. MMORPGs create ass-pricking parasites of the society when others are working so hard to support their addiction. Fucking ticks. I'm not just commenting on how deadly MMORPGs can be just for the sake of it (it's a lawyer's thing). A loved one had gone rage when we tried to pull him out of the obsession. He has been going MIA for 4 days now. He hasn't commited suicide that I'm sure, but contributing nothing to the family and even leech from our hardwork, that's. Well it's tolerable since we're a family but shouldn't he be fighting for a brighter future? 25-35 years old in my opinion is the most crucial period of your life - you gotta polish your name up real bright in the field you're pursuing within that 10 years or you'll end up submitting to fresh graduates with better physical appearance, better memory and has more potential to hold more asset value in a company. That's fucking sad man, but reality is harsh. When will he ever start thinking for himself? Sigh I just feel so bad. Hopefully my dead mother will enlighten this lost soul in his dreams. I mean she has always been the beacon and sanctuary of every single member in the family. Sometimes I just miss her so much. Just sometimes.

Anyway I'll add in more spices to this post when I figure out more nonsense to blabber blab.

Blabber blabber blab. Yada yada yada. Zing zang zoom.

So,what's on your mind?

EPIC EXCUSES

2011-06-28T15:49:00.002+08:00

Today

jun ! I got money making opportunity.come join me !

what

im not gonna strip

lol nothing like that la

I'm meeting sam tonight : )

oo

makan?

yea.makan also

in lotus

oh

pai seh a reply a bit slow answering questionnairese

and lotus ew

haha how's the jap teacher ?

lol come la ! don't always stay at home !

i wan chill at home

lol

go out very tiring

the jap teacher ah, she's leaving her hair long!

haha you damn a lot of alasan right XD

jun,come la,you'll be happy you came

its k la

i got a lot of alasan d

my bro's buying dinner back d

in fact he bought already im not at home later cannot finish waste food

i dont like lotus la the food not edible wan

my car license expired no transport (in fact i just drove to lrt today)

i sick la fever cannot go out

sorry la jamez stomach ache

my dad dont let me go out at night

tonight i have something on wor...

i got a lot of stuffs to do today

i need to wash my clothes at night leh.. no time le

OMG EPIC

hahah damn epic

imma make a blog post out of this

lol

it's ok la

next time

can la

u enjoy your macha time

later i become light bulb not good oso

i love to love~

2011-06-27T09:19:00.001+08:00

but my baby just loves to dance!

epic phail lol

2011-06-22T12:09:00.002+08:00

done with the ugly sketch!

sigh wanted to sketch a nice potrait of marilyn monroe, but *sigh* its k im gonna practice moar!!!!!!!!!!

i turned my sketch upside down for a reason. to see my ugly drawing, its either you tilt your head over or save image as bluek and tilt it. i prefer if you use the first option tho :P

dirty fingerssss

can't get rid of those stains!! grr.

2011-06-12T12:04:00.001+08:00

Oh holy poopery!

2011-06-06T19:30:00.000+08:00

I'm in love. With his exotic asian accent and a 10 year age gap between us, that's fucking hot.

Right. I like old guys lol.

2011-06-05T22:22:00.002+08:00

okay im really determined to do a blog entry. about what idk kanasai!!!

i'm gonna start exercising tomorrow. LOSE WEIGHT LOSE WEIGHT! later go japan become XXXXL size lol how la.

now i wanna go nemasu d. bai bai.

2011-05-30T23:34:00.003+08:00

okay last post to push that unrefined post entry down. well well i've been obsessed with sketching lately. came across this book in mph titled dracula i think? and the sketches inside were soo erotic! i'll definitely buy that book if i ever come across it again. the sharp features of sex-crazed women (THAT IS SO BETTIE PAGE) in coned-shaped bras (the only thing i hate about the 50s!) brought me real deep into the sketches. twirls drawn as sharp as knives slicing an obese naked lady's brain (i think it signifies the strong delusion of those seduced women) caused a slight disturbance inside me reminding myself of a gothic version of fruit ninja. sketches of women being bitten softly on their neck with their head tilted backwards enjoying the pleasure of caressing, man have i tried plunging myself into that atmosphere (according to my own interpretation of that particular drawing) and tried sketching it but i just can't proceed with it! there was this immense disturbance which left me real drowsy and the distraction was so great i felt like watching porn :) i just can't focus man my thoughts keep slipping so i waved my white undie right up on the brush. the passion of such intimacy cannot be ruined in an amateur's foolish soul it'll be a disgrace to the artist, terribly alter my impression on art as well as destructing the faith i had left in my imagination. well i'll try putting my hands on it again after i have my first ping-pong battle.

i can't describe what sketching style it's grouped under. hell is there even a name for it? aaahhh.

"He replied, "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you."" - Matthew 17:20

how small is a mustard seed btw? ok i'll go asian and say my faith is as small as a sesame seed. no really.

2011-05-30T23:08:00.000+08:00

it is set. IM GETTING A CANON 60D.

2011-05-30T23:05:00.002+08:00

ya know, when someone tells you how beautiful this world is, well i say give them hell! like forcing them to eat petais, drink chinese medicine, chew on ginseng slices, poke em hard on the waist, and tickle their pretentious noses with a feather.

why am i saying all thesE? to pass time indeed!

2011-05-30T23:02:00.001+08:00

2011-05-30T23:01:00.002+08:00

sorry im just gonna post more nonsensical entries to push that post with fugly fucked up pics of my wrinkles down.

BOOBIESS!!!!

first sign of aging :(

2011-05-28T16:58:00.001+08:00

Yes fuck it I'm 20 now. OLLLDDD.

So I was making stupid faces in front of the mirror today aaaannnd -

Wrinkles O' wrinkles. What to do, what to do.

~~fml.~~

Lol inspired by The.. More like INFLUENCED by The Chive. Awesome website check em out.

How am I gonna celebrate my birthday? I wanted char kuay teow but dad said it's expensive to eat outside everyday so he ta pau lauk from chap fan stall and ask me cook rice for dinner.

Harsh, harsh reality.

Rant rant rant

2011-05-23T00:46:00.004+08:00

Okay seriously?

No one gives a damn bout my admission to Nagoya University! And hey the fact that it's a scholarship shouldn't it deserve more attention? But no one cares nope no one does. T.T

Below is an example of how a conversation regarding my university will carry on like : -

XXX : "So what are your future plans ah?"
Me : "Oh I got accepted into a Japan univer..."
XXX: "OMG JAPAAAAAANNN!!! *wails* WOW WOW WHAT UNIVERSITY IS THAT?"
Me : " *feeling a lil happy* Oh it's called Nagoya University."
XXX: "Ohhhhhh..... I see.... Where is it ah?"
Me : "Japan?"
XXX: "Ha-ha-ha. What course you doing leh?"
Me : "*I can predict his/her next expression* Law. Fuck Yeah Law."
XXX: " It's not recognized in Malaysia right?"
Me : "Nope absolutely not. Unless I sit for the CRP exam here."
XXX: "Ohhh.......... Like quite hard to get job hor?"
Me: "Ya lo. Nvm every meal got rice then can d."
XXX : "Ha ha ha you so funny la."

*Long loud sighhhhhhhhhhhhhh*

Feeling a bit disoriented about my future university, I approached my Jap class teacher to consult her on this matter. She jumped on her spot for a bit and said "CONGRATULATIONSSSS!!!" in Japanese. "ARE YOU HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY?!!!" WELL she looks happier than I am so yeah lol. And at first she thought I was gonna be involved in some student exchange program there. And I asked her if it was hard for Japs themselves to get enrolled in. According to her Nagoya University is a national university, and it's very hard for them locals to get enrolled in there. DON'T START OFF TALKING BOUT TOKYO UNIVERSITY THAT ONE MY ASS ALSO CANNOT GET IN LA. But yeah totally boost my confidence weih!!! Can go around lan c again ahahaahhahah.

So yeah I went around and check for Nagoya University's world ranking by QS. Well, 91th, not that bad la right? And then I checked it's ranking in Asia. 10th. NOT BAD WHAT. Why does everyone give a shit bout the location of the university instead of the quality of the university itself! And I know I know "JAPAN!!" BUT I'm not exactly looking forward to go there. 4 years leh, everyday takoyaki can die. But yeah well. Idk, maybe I'll love it there never been there before.

As obscene as I could be, I'll prolly enjoy it there.

So right, just a question. Since I've been having a massive amount of complaints for not being feminine enough / dress up skills are horrible with my pasar malam pants and pasar malam shirt and pasar malam sandals,

STICKERS ON FACE YAY!!!

Would you guys love me MOAR if I dress up this way? *.* AT LEAST none of it is from pasar malam right. Maybe some from pasar pagi. Har har.

OKAY SO WHO WANTS TO BUY ANYTHING FROM JAPAN JUST TELL ME. Gonna help one of my friend to check out the price of the Nikon lenses over there. Maybe I should start an online store. IDK just pour in some suggestions! BTW I'm only leaving on September. So yeah meh. Lol.

CAN SOMEONE DO THIS DANCE WITH ME LOL

2011-05-20T14:07:00.000+08:00

Nonsensical post dedicated to my sakai friend : - Chen Tien Mie

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TIEN MIE. I REMEMBERED YOUR SURNAME, AND WTF'S WITH WONG QI JUN LOL. What kinda friend are you im gonna stab myself to death :/

OKay i wasn't meant to start this post with a hate speech! Well haven't been updating my blog for a while, and Miss Chen requested me to do so, so here I am! A post dedicated to her her and solely her! No pics tho I sent my lappy for some maintenance

Right let's start! So we've known each other since tuition??? When did we start speaking to each other I have practicality no idea man. But it was prolly her since I was so shy back then (WAAIIT LEMME CONTINUE LOL) I mean I can be a real bitch around old friends but with new people around me well I tend to appear to be meek. Hey when I went for my first job interview my boss was like "you're so gentle and meek, are you sure you can handle the not-so-friendly clients?" LOL I had a good day lmfao. OKAY SORRY I DIGRESSED LOL SORRY TIEN MIEEEE

Hmm my first impression of her was "Ooo SK school one. English so good i pai seh la~" you know back in those days my English can eat shit wan. It'll take me more than 30 secs to construct a sentence in reply lol. But yeah we start to get closer and closer to each other, with her constantly ready to listen to my tantrums and bullshit every thursday night. And I totally love it when she goes "OMG you're so smart!" "I know I am la!" Lol I doubt if i ever said that but damn it really felt gooood!

And then I learnt that she's learning piano too! I was still doing my Grade 6 when she went like "Oh I'm at Grade 8 now!" >:( <--- kiasu face but ya I don't really care now I hate the piano anyways. I didn't really share most of my shit with her back in those days, all I care about was beating everyone in science back then. Like study study study damn kiasu. Look at me now! Super laid-back, and couldn't care less bout other ppl's achievement. Lazy bummer, meh.

Lol this post is more bout me rather than her. DAAAAMNN.

Okay so I stopped tuition at form 4, and I never saw her again, until I returned from NS!!! I was at JPJ attending the stupid class regarding traffic rules and stuff and I spot her :D (Did I spot her or the other way round? Did I say hi first? OH man IDK) but yeah it was nice meeting her again! We talked for a bit and I was pretty happy that she's doing form 6 too! Though diff stream but same school YAY!

And yeah we start becoming close after attending the same school together, particularly during orientation. I'll lie lazily on her shoulder and put my hands around her arms. And she never express any dislike or intend to stop me from doing that, like what most will :( But yeah her shoulders are super comfortable! Haahahahaha! Just when I thought I have a new gossip partner, bugger she transfered to Taman C! Meh sigh. So yeah we text each other occassionally when I'm yearning for some gossips, well yeah that's bout it. Kinda died off during upper 6, all of us were so stressed most of our hair were falling. Pimples, wrinkles, dark rings, eyebags, acnes, those were our best friends back then.

So yeah lotsa things happened during my upper 6 life, it's an experience that's forever embedded deep inside me. I didn't really have anyone to share with (not because I don't have friends around me, everyone expressed much concern but I was in a deep dilemma of how to put my feelings into words, I still can't now) so most of the things, well the major stuffs are implanted deep inside, others vanished into uhm, right where they belong. So with lotsa mixed feelings trapped inside I went out with her after STPM and had a really good talk. It's not really a conversation, more of me complaining and bullshitting while trying to control myself. It was nice to have someone to talk to bout such things, I can't tell any of you any of that right now, I do not want to remind myself of the deep shit I was drenched in, and I can no longer remember the details lol. But yeah we were sitting outside the bakery, having a sandwich or two, and that was really soothing. When I'm with her bullshitting I'm less reluctant to share a piece of my mind, and I hope she doesn't get bored of it anytime soon? xD She'll be ready with an explanation everytime i blurb out some random nonsense, how nice of her eh! And yeah she doesn't care bout my weight, my style of clothing, my taste, my nonsensical arguments, and she accepts me the way I am. Even if she cares bout my weight she just wants me to look better lol, at least she doesn't give me the pissed off face at my size.

Anyway there are so many good traits of her I'm willing to share in this post, but she's so amazing it's impossible to summarize Chen Tien Mie in this insignificant post! Get to know her people, you'll never regret it :)You're a wonderful friend baby, and I look forward to tomorrow's lepak-ing! :)

2011-05-14T12:20:00.002+08:00

need more ideas on this blog's design! oh the wonders of photoshop.

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im starting to get sick of this bumming life. lol.

2011-05-02T22:33:00.002+08:00

^(^oo^)^

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FOUND SOMETHING INTERESTING.

http://grampus.cog.human.nagoya-u.ac.jp/honke/honke_PC/f02_member/2011/member2011-2files/member2011-2.shtml
http://grampus.cog.human.nagoya-u.ac.jp/honke/honke_PC/f02_member/2011/member2011-3files/member2011-3.shtml
http://grampus.cog.human.nagoya-u.ac.jp/honke/honke_PC/f02_member/2011/member2011-4files/member2011-4.shtml

Translate the pages to english!!

AND WHO THE SHIT TOLD ME THAT JAPS ARE HOT FUCKING BULLSHIT.

Maybe its because of the club itself? >3>

btw THE CHICKS ARE GOODISH.

http://grampus.cog.human.nagoya-u.ac.jp/honke/honke_PC/f02_member/2011/member2011-3files/member2011-3staff.shtml

MWAH MWAH

2011-04-28T00:10:00.002+08:00

Photo blog!

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This blog WAS meant to be a photo blog. But what to do when you run out of photos :(

O well okay I'm gonna start posting nicer photos when I'm at Jap! For now, I'LL JUST POST MORE PICS OF MYSELF.

Just saying.

ME AND ME AND ME

2011-04-26T01:52:00.004+08:00

A post of only me, me and me!!!

Gah it's already 1.38 and i still can't meet up with my dead mother. A.k.a sleep lmfao.

So got up and did some music meditation!! (Who cares if it makes any sense to any of our simple minds, as long as Steve Vai says so it must some kind of godly term that transcends every pathetic barrier of all human sanity. Well I'm gonna abuse it.)

Being the impatient one I got bored after doing some basic shredding HOW IN VAI'S NAME DID HE PRACTICE 13 HOURS OF GUITAR EVERYDAY? WATTABOUT SEX? If he have sex with the guitar DOES THAT MEAN well never mind. Mmmm. Sizzling hawt. I'll fantasize bout him all night long we gonna have a threesome with qitah. Meh I'm actually getting a lil sleepy here.

SO YA I END UP HAVING SOME REAL ACTION WITH MY WEBCAM. I know what you're thinking but NOPE it'll be unsightly heh.

***POSE POSE POSE***

Ya know licking the guitar isn't so bad after all. The strings taste pretty good hee.

Yeah man imma be licking it like a real ~~dick~~. Okay I better get some sleep soon someone's getting vulgar here.

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So I've left my favourite kindy ftm! Gonna resume working there during August or so idk.

Sorry for the uber late update! Has been busy dwindling with 3ds max and photoshop and endless misc house errands.

Gonna start posting photos of kiddies again! Running out of the cute ones tho the rest are so blurry. BUY ME A DSLR SOMEONE.

Not gonna edit any of those photos tho. It's best original heh.

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ugly header and fugly background! yay!

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Admission

2011-03-27T23:52:00.000+08:00

Just got the letter from Nagoya University a few days back. My first air mail letter!

The envelope was sooo nice~! And the paper quality of the offer letter is damn awesome weih! Super thick!

Sorry I just gotta take some pics with it. I'm pretty sure I'm gonna lose it at least there's this blog post.

Still thinking bout it. Tuition waiver and 20k per year for me to spend. Not enough la can only cover 6 months in Japan! My dad still needs to give me 2.5k per month for 6 months! Some more got radiation. Haih. See la. Prolly gonna work there.

Sorry! No kids in this post. Just a regular pedophile showing off. Damn I need some sleep.

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Okay this blog is gonna be constipated of words for now.

Posting random pics of daily confronts.

Pedo pedo jun

2011-02-27T18:55:00.015+08:00

Dammit, just when I thought I was only lesbo, Imma goddamn pedophile.

I'm falling for this 4-year old kid. BUT HE'S SO FUCKING CUTE AHHH.

Know how to pose some more. Lol.

If imma be havin a son as cute and smart as him, dammit imma get myself pregnant like right now! Well that's unless my bf's some Hollywood leng chai like I doubt it'll come true :( I mean like sons look like their mothers, I'm damn ugly and my son will never look as gorgeous as him. Deng, I'm so not giving birth! My son's gonna look like William Hung. Well not entirely a bad thing but WTF.

You gonna be seeing this guy in Playgirl's cover, year 2020's latest edition.

RRRRRREEEEEEEOWWWWWWWWW CAT MAN

Some random shots of em in the playground lol

Can you see the nasty stuffs sticking out from her nostrils? It'll prolly look gross on an adult but it's perfectly tolerable when a kid has it. Lol.

Friend having some great time handling the kids. Bless her.

Colouring time!

Super cute boy again AHHHHHHH HE LOOKS GOOD EVEN WHEN HE'S COLOURING. DIU.

OMG SUCH TALENTS. *.* LMFAO

Mr. hyperactive. The word "pocket" is his kryptonite.

This girl is super cute xD

Lol my friend listening to senseless rantings == "He took my pencil" "Teacher blah just pinched me" BLAH.

That's her teaching....

That's her interrogating the kids...

That's her acting as a crow to amuse the kids....

Poor friend.

Anyway good day fellas! I'm rocking with qi tah right now. Need time for lessons! :/

Gahahahha soh poh! Sorry a bit high now listening to Iron Maiden hehehee.

Coming undone

2011-02-19T20:06:00.004+08:00

So me working as a kindergarten teacher in pandah indah nao. Me haz to wake up at 5.30am and takez ze LRT from kelana jaya to masjid jamek, then change LRT to Pandah Indah, and me will reach home around 7.30pm. Pay's shit, and this is seriously a full-time job. Have to keep my eyes on kidz every single secondz gotta clean their pooz make sure they wash ze platez and all sortza nonzenze.

Lol yeah haven't managed to take any pics, every single second of you is just occupied whenever there are kids around. Sigh anyway I'm working under Tzu Chi (慈濟) that helped my mom got some free bone marrow from Taiwan. So yeah you know, the repay thing. Hope I can eat all these shit up till september.

And well this job hmm. You won't be so shameful to take even a break off. Well you're actually receiving your pay from the hard works of other Tzu Chi members that sell stuffs to the public to make money, and some from charity. So yeah. And I mean education is such a holy field man, which I always avoid coz imma shit head filled with shit, so unless I can make myself a better person I'll always avoid being a teacher. But yeah good thing everything's taught in Chinese over there lol, no chance for me to curse and swear xD

Well I've met funny kids over there. There's a kid that falls asleep while eating (hilarious much!) and there's a kid that wants to wash his ass after pee-ing (lol) and when told not to do that unless he's gonna shit, he'll start crying and emo whole day. It's an endless crying marathon over there, a contagious disease. But yeah the girls seem to appreciate it when i tie their hair for them after their afternoon nap, although it looks like shit gahaha. Good thing they don't really look into the mirror, unlike the guys who love posing in front of it and laugh at their own reflection.

Fuck. Now i start to appreciate the times i taught in primary school. At least it's all academic based.

Need more moneh!

2011-02-13T21:16:00.003+08:00

Needa make moh moneh for an ampf!

Aaaaand I'm proud to present my new family member - kwong qi tah!

Thaaaaat's right I have a baby brother now, thanks mom~!

I hate duck faces.

So we went to the park, just me and my little sister.

2011-01-28T11:33:00.004+08:00

"My little sister wanted to go to the park. Mom was soo busy, so I said, "I'll take her.""

"So we went to the park, just me and my little sister."

"She wanted to play jumprope,"

"...so i showed her how."

"I gave her a ride on the merry-go-round,"

"... but it went too fast."

"My little sister wanted to play basketball, but the hoop was too high."

"So I let her go on the swing until she was tired."

"Then she was thirsty, so I helped her drink from the fountain."

"My little sister went to the sandbox. She wanted to play mudpiee..."

".. but it was time to go home."

"My little sister had such a good time in the park that Mom says I can take her again tomorrow."

xDDDD

2011-01-16T20:00:00.013+08:00

HATE MY JOB I HATE MY JOB.

Sorry I can't stop ranting omfg. It's like my pay's super low (1k), i'm not considered a full-time staff, no one actually brief me on my job, and well I didn't really know what I'm supposed to be doing until like what the 4th day of work? (I've been doing donkey work like cutting papers and all for the past 3 days) So yeah on the 5th day the woman ang moh shot me in the face and say "shame on me" for not knowing my job. And I was like wtf you're not even my boss! And even said stuff like "Oh me and boss were very impressed with the way you deal with customers during sat, well you're not that bad after all, otherwise we would've said bye to you *hand gesturing bye*"

Well i fucking dare you to fire me. Let's see if you can get anyone else at this time when it's so close to CNY.

"And when the customers come, you should be putting away all your paper work. Customers are our priority."

Oh why yes. But wtf you gave a whole shit load of paper work and sometimes when work is piling up i get so damn engrossed and did not see the customer coming BUT AT LEAST I STOOD UP AND SAID HI GOOD MORNING/AFTERNOON/EVENING. Like wtf why the shit do I have to open the door for em I feel like a total dog don't they have hands themselves? Ok I sound ridiculous lol maybe she wants me to make the customer feel welcomed but hey, I did perfectly fine for 30 customers and I might miss opening the door for only one customer and wtf. And when she gave me nonsensical jobs somewhere near the boss' office (which was quite a distance from my reception desk) and then she walked out towards the entrance. Then a customer came she said hi and all (always blames me for not greeting the customer. I mean she has already yelled out a loud "GOOD EVENING" and all I can do is smile and say hi or else I'll sound like some over-enthusiastic retard) and so yeah. Later on she scolded me for not running out to greet the customer and I thought to myself wtf you're out there already can't you just say hi? And you were the one who made me busy behind. Lol. Sorry. I'm ridiculous. I guess I need to get used to this.

"If you make the customer feel welcomed, they might bring in more customers and boss will make more money and our paycheck will be higher!"

So deep down inside. I said fuck you. My pay's 1k. And yours is 5k. Stfu would you? And I'm the one handling all the cantonese and mandarin-speaking only customers and I made money for you people. At least 5 mandarin-speaking only customer has signed up under me. I made at least 5k for you fags in just 8 days of my work. Appreciation please?

"And you're really really lucky I've been doing your work since last year."

Woman, I started working on the 4th of Jan 2011. You stupid?

Lol anyway my work is to promote courses to customers, answer inquiries for both walk-in and phone calls, arrange library books, book transactions, data entry, prepare teaching materials before classes, arrange teaching materials after classes, change the drinking water and it's goddamn heavy (not like I ever drink from it), course scheduling, accept money and issue receipts, , bullshit with customers, if anything goes wrong in the office ( running out of water, photocopy machine spoil, order more teaching materials) and they will need me to get at least 3 quotation. And what to do. Find yellow pages lo.

Well basically I do all the nonsense stuff. Like the other day office ran out of coffee mate and it was raining out there and they ask me to go buy. To avoid the rain I basically ran with heels (booyah) and took shelter from place to place. I think I've walked in heels for at least 1km to and fro lol. Ran through roads and hell I was close to drenched and soaked. Then I went back to the office building, the lift door opened, 1 uncle came out, another uncle walked out, and OMFG DAD WTF YOU DOING HERE. Well apparently he's there for some meeting. Lmfao.

For lunch breaks, I'm always in the office and they're out to makan. Well it's fun in the office I get to read books and chill for that one hour and answer any incoming calls. Oh oh and the 3rd day of work. I have never seen the boss's wife so I didn't really give a shit. Got like 3 calls during my lunch break. For the 4th call, the ringtone of the phone is pretty loud i freaked out and dropped my sandwich. So I quite dulan la then I answered, and the person on the phone was inquiring for courses. Then i explained and stuff then she asked if the boss is in. I told her to call back at 2 o'clock (normally I'll take their names down and phone number but i was super pissed with my begone sandwich :/) and later on I found out that it was the boss's wife and she was testing me. You can imagine how I felt at that time. So yeah she say when customer call must take down their num la but wtf it's goddamn lunch break! If you're thinking of maximizing your resources you're doing it wrong woman I need to chill too yo.

I thought of quitting the other day. But that won't prove myself worthy if I just leave that way, and what the shit am i gonna write in my resume? So i have now plotted the ultimate revenge. To make them teach me all the stuffs they know. The boss's wife worked as a broker and is superior in phone calls. Must learn that up. Ang moh woman is super good in coding and microsoft access and database management. Must learn that up too. After some time when they get dependent on me I'll just walk out and leave them to die. Heh. For one, my pay is damn low (my blazer's already 500 bucks ok!!!) and they gotta make up to it. I gotta learn something up and make myself more competitive in the near future. And two, well they just deserve it.

I like where this is going.

Lesson for the day : When someone bo song with you, song with her for the moment. Squeeze everything outta her, slap ass and walk out. Don't forget to leave a fragrant fart.

Anyway i have a whole lot pic to upload but pics from another phone crashed and burned. Well it'll be back to me in a few days so yeah. Anyway some pics from my old damn phone.

p.s. if you detect any form of insanity in the pictures below it's all due to the lunch break. :/

165 CM. JUST TALL ENOUGH TO BE AN AIR HOSTESS NYEHEHE i thought I was 162 all the while! And no I wasn't wearing heels took it off.

MY FAVOURITE BOOK. YAY. JKS LOL.

Lunch break.

O good lord yeah those are heels.

I can get used to doing this.

1.3k yo. Some customers love paying with cash.

New Year's Eve

2010-12-31T11:58:00.002+08:00

No resolution for the next year. I can't see anything happening soon. Yet.

Trying to simplify the confusing nonsense in life and strip em to the core.

No make-ups, no high heels, no branded shitz, just a happy soul and a calm mind. It's so simple to be happy :>

So yeah fuck you cosmetics. Not gonna touch em no more. Looks do matter that much? More than one's personality? It may complement each other, but why confuse things?

I've been out too much these days and some part of me's slipping off. A relaxing day at home enlightened me in so many ways. I've been too depressed for too long. Guess it's time to break through!

I'm starting to find a whole new me deep inside. Not something new, but something long forgotten.

Life's supposed to be so simple, so simple.

Super dang bored.

2010-12-21T09:17:00.002+08:00

Aloha to all the awesome people who are reading this awesome post! A big hug to you people mwah mwah mwah!

Well no one seems to be blogging nowadays eh? I mean I'm REALLY REALLY BORED lol and since this blog is so dead I've decided to revive it for a bit.

Anyway I'm going out with Melody this afternoon! So far she's the only one free for the day lol. *Snippets snippets*

Form 6 was such a bitch. Was overwhelmed with enthusiasm when i first entered, and here I am drowning in the pool of shit I've created. Now my results are gonna be super bad, and I'm hoping that some uni will accept me by my super-uprgaded forecast result. My results are THAT bad :(

So yeah hey guys, how do you feel when you're looking back the things that you've done in year 2010? Well for me it was both the best and the worst year of my life. Best to have known so many assholes in my class (me being a major stucked up one), and worst, well, family affairs and academics. But no, there was not a tinge of bitterness. It kinda changed me inside out. YOU know when you watch the incredible hulk he just go like "NGGHHHRRHHHHGGGNNHHHHHHHHHH RAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH" kinda thing. I'm breaking free! Yaho!!!!

Well my future's nothing but a piece of shit right now. That's all I can see. Nope it won't be glorious and glamorous and embroidered with diamonds, but I'm dead sure that I can see rice on my table for every meal. Side-dishes are optional. Such is the inconsistency of real love. Wait, whaaat?!

Anyway i HATE all the songs that they're playing on the radio these days. It's goddamn annoying and I'd rather resort to the 1950s.

Heartache number 1 was when you left me~
I never knew~ I could hurt this way~
Heartache number 2 was when you came back again~
You came back but never meant to stay~
Heartache number 3 was when you called me~
And said that you were coming back to stay~
With hopeful heart I've waited for you~
Knock on the door~
I've waited but you must have lost your way :(

Stop right now, thank you very much, I need somebody with the human touch!

2010-08-12T21:34:00.002+08:00

ELLO.

So yeah uhm well i guess i owe you guys a brief account regarding well, yeah you guys know bout that dont cha xD I really appreciate your concerns and stuff, and I didn't mean to keep it a secret. To me, t' was unnecessary so spread the sadness around, it'll just do us no good. I truly appreciate your calls, messages, etc., and i'm sorry for being harsh or inconsiderate in replying. Well. I know you guys were trying to make me feel better, but constantly asking if i'm fine or yada yada yada just gets on my nerves and i would rather you peeps leaving me alone at that moment of time. Never knew how the news spread. And STOP FUCKING SAY THAT YOU'RE SORRY FOR MY LOSS OR JUST FOR THE SAKE OF SAYING SORRY. It's annoying! It's not like any of you killed her or what lah, SO STOP SAYING IT'S NERVE-WRECKING AND I'LL JUST PINCH YOU ON THE ASS IF YOU SAY SO (unless you're some S&M dick). AND DON'T GIVE ME THE STUPID SAD FACE ":("

See, I'm being harsh again. Hehe, blame pc games! Hmmm. For those who wondered "why she didn't cry wan ah?" Aiyo cry also you dunno la, think i so pathetic cry in front of you guys meh. Even if i do, I'm prolly looking for some real attention and stuffs. And besides, I saw that coming. I always have this feeling that i'll never get to see her dying of old age. Prolly a good thing tho, just like Marilyn Monroe's death. She'll be remembered for her curves and beauty for centuries, not those nasty wrinkles and the age pigments EWWWW.

And well. Imma heartless shrewd and i admit that. But i ain't gonna cry for the sake of crying. See, when someone dies, you cry. And why is that? You're actually crying for YOUR loss ("oh, i'll never get to see that person again! BOOHOOHOO.") instead of rejoicing for the deceased, who's completely freed from his/her mortal bonds. And i think you're just being selfish. Humans ARE selfish. So, there you go. Just a food for thought.

Stop asking me if I'm OK or not. No i-am-not ok if you guys keep spamming me with that question. It's really hard to answer.

I'm already 19. And according to the laws I'm faaaaaar from being a kid. I can handle myself from this point onwards i think. Life goes on.

I haven't been a filial daughter, nor a patient one. All my life I've been wasting it on pleasures and desires, never offering an open heart and lending a ear for tantrums and complaints. That's something that i never worked on, and something that i will never work on.

Sorry people, this post is just pointless. I guess i didn't make the message clear. Stop worrying bout me, carry on with your lives, and if i ever ever sink into depression, i have my games :)

I can't expect you guys to understand how im feelin right now, but imma say this once and for all - I'm fine. There's much more to be done, gotta get use to my new life, and from this point onwards, let us just work hard. Life is impermanent, and the only thing permanent bout this world is impermanence. Bear with it, and I do not believe religious claims bout eternal heaven or hell. No saint is thoroughly perfect, and no sinner is truly evil inside out upside down.

Gotta work more on my temper! Ain't gonna cut down my cursing rate too. Makes me happy. Delighted. Contented. And Great.

Peace.

2010-06-25T17:47:00.002+08:00

IM. SO BORED.

And yesh I am absolutely chillin' today! It's a friday, people! (or maybe just dusts that sticks on my blog, its so dead!) A-hoy my lovely dusts! It's a friday, and what are your plans other than just lurking in my blog huh?

Let'ss seeeee. I screwed up my exams (YAY!) and man, I'm like supposed to be in this camp in Broga Hills. But nah, insects and mosquitoes LOVE meh, and not to mention the insect bites i had from last year's NS still itches! Bio-oil is just sooooo overrated.

And yes, this blog is dead. Don't bother visiting. Okay never mind, no one's visiting anyway, so why bother writing bout this really.

I'm as *horny as Kansas in August

2010-06-17T00:12:00.002+08:00

I'm as corny as Kansas in August, I'm as normal as blueberry pie;

No more a smart little girl with no heart I have found me a wonderful guy!

I am in a conventional dither, With a conventional star in my eye;

And you will note there's a lump in my throat when I speak of that wonderful guy!

I'm trapped in the sea of endless whispers, and the birds rejoice in my drown;

But they'll never know with his fortune they'll be all served in delicate dishes!

Om nom nom.

Prize pig.

2010-05-09T21:42:00.003+08:00

It is time.

Watch out, public enemy #1. Go get a titanium armor or sumthin', coz imma be owning your ass.

Gonna kick that cocky butt, and stapler that focked up mouth.

Here I come. BOW, NIGGA.

No license to kill.

2010-04-21T23:28:00.005+08:00

Recently, I have come to discover that I have yet to learn from my dog when it comes to processing emotions. Instead of the word "heartless", I shall substitute it with the word "practicality".

Let's see. I remember the days when my dog was a puppy. The first few days it was whining and barking and I guess he missed his bitch mama. Right after a day or two, he was perfectly fine and treated us like one of his kind. Awesome.

And yes. When a kid doesn't miss his mom, you might call him heartless or sumthin. But I call it logical, and absolutely practical. Why stark in the past when you have to focus on what should be done now. How you gonna deal with the environment, get food, shelter, and stuffs. What's the point of missing someone anyway when you know it won't keep your tummy full. That's the basic concept of survival, and I guess I shouldn't keep too much memories. Memories brings up all sorts of yada yada emotions, and emotions are vulnerable. I don't need anything vulnerable.

Same goes to my memories with my buddies. I think I have started to adopt my dog's way of thinkin', and I can barely remember anything special that we've all been through. As I sat cross-legged on my bed, and started to sink into deep thoughts, I realize that most of the people I know, are like delocalized electrons that will eventually leave the spot that you're on, leaving minor traces at which you can actually grasp or reminisce. The state of mind at that point of time is far from reality, but i have failed to realize it and became more and more dependent on it, then imagine some random crazy things which always ends up with a lonely sigh.

I really wish to understand my mind better, perhaps meditation can help me to gain a sense of control in my emotions. Past memories should be wiped off completely so as to maintain the clear cool mind. A bad assumption. But who knows if it'll work! And if it works, the above sentence will be quoted after me and I shall be immortalized. Awesome!

I wonder how long it'll take though. Maybe never. Sometimes, pets are undoubtedly the best teacher in your life.

License to Kill.

2010-04-08T11:27:00.000+08:00

AND YES. DAI NIGGAS DAI.

Rich boyfriend wanted!

2010-04-03T22:16:00.003+08:00

I DONT CARE IF YOU'RE BALD FAT STUPID OR PERHAPS SMELLY AS LONG AS YOU CAN BUY ALL THESE SHIT FOR ME AND YES IMMA BE LOVING YOU LONG TIME, FUCK YOU UP NICELY FOR THE REST OF YOUR PATHETIC LIFE.

1) Intel Core i7
2) Zotac GTX 295 Infinity
3) Western Digital Velociraptor WD3000HLFS

4) MSI X58 Pro
5) Corsair Dominator PC3 - 12800 1, 600MHz

6) Cooler Master CMStorm Sniper Chassis

7) CoolIT Domino ALC

8) Asus Xonar DS 7.1

9) Fatal1ty USB gaming headset

THATS IT.

But yeah, come to think of it. If you have a comp with those specs for now, why bother getting a girlfriend anyway?

OH. SORRY I MISSED OUT SUMTHIN.

LOOOKING FOR A BOYFRIEND, THAT CAN AFFORD 2 COMPS WITH THE SPECS LISTED ABOVE.

One for him, one for me.

Happily ever after x)

Cheers ;)

I know I'm cooler than your average air conditioner, so bear with it :)

2010-03-21T11:54:00.003+08:00

Upon hearing the final hum of the quantum teleportation device, taking the first sight of his too familiar home, he took his breath. Home. Finally.

But he noticed something wrong. Terribly wrong. Something's. Out of place. His E-28 mechs. His servants. His mom.The air was cold as ice, lifeless. An alarming thought striked him almost immediately, and little did he realize, he was shivering and quivering as his heart pounds faster and faster every subsequent second. He took a step out of the portal chamber, which separates the rest of the house from the teleportation device. He regained his conscious, no longer lost in thoughts. He began analyzing the state of his home. He smell something burnt, and it's definitely not lunch. Walls? Burnt marks. Obvious firing marks from a gun that fires small pellets of metal that are sped up using a miniature mass relay. Mechs? Missing in action. Possibility of enemy contact. Explains the absence of organics. Terrorists assault? Not plausible. Security forces would have been alarmed on ruthless break in. A planned attack. Identified organics familiar with the artificial intelligence program. Very, very probable. Possibility assured.

He walked towards the house, unsettled by the presence of innumerable scorch marks everywhere.

"EVA, can you read me?" He whispered. EVA, an acronym for Electrical Voice Assistant, which is commonly known as the AI (Artificial Intelligence). No response. He approached the closest terminal and shouted through the intercom. "EVA, respond now! Can you read me? EVA!" But to no avail. The usual green glow from the terminal has died off. This is bad. The security of his home has been raided and compromised.

He stormed towards the armory in his house to get himself equipped in case of danger. Upon reaching the armory, he realized the source of his "lunch". Scattered, burnt circuits. He looked around and saw broken up droids. Perhaps the security droids weren't so secure after all. He couldn't bear the sight of the carnage and activated the door control towards the armory.

"Hmm. Which gun should I use now?" After equipping his environmental suit, he thought of his chances of survival with each gun. Assault rifles. Brilliant accuracy for long range attacks, but he wasn't planning on that. Sniper rifles. Meh. At the corner of his eye, he spotted a shotgun which his father bought from a krogan last week. Perfect. And what about a pistol? Yes yes. M-3 predator heavy pistol? Kid's choice. Carnifex Hand Cannon is way more efficient. So, holding a shotgun in hand, a pistol in his pocket, and some thermal clips, he felt armed and dangerous, no longer the whiny white kid who gets the most wedgie in school.

He walked towards his parent's bedroom, cautiously. And he sensed strange voices in the room.

"Humans are a blight on galactic purity and I am giving you, human, a chance to repent your sins before you swim in a planet of dirt and faeces. The word is clear! I need you, to speak out during the Council meeting, on behalf of the Batarians." The voice was accompanied by screeching sounds of SMGs reloading.

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IM TOO LAZY TO CONTINUE. SOMEDAY I SHALL. IM LAZY. KEEP CHECKING, OR TELL ME HOW YOU WANT THE STORY TO GO. LUNCH TIME YAY.